Three days with no food

Our YWAM base was led by God to do a base-wide 3 day fast. I’ve never fasted more than one meal at a time before, so I knew this was a challenge that I would be walking into. The thing is, I love to eat! I love the flavors of foods, and I love the company that I scarf those foods down in!

I have to say, on this side of things, I have an entire new love for Jesus!

I began the fast by asking God to satisfy my food cravings. I said I wanted to completely focus on what He had for me and would he do it…and because we have a good Father that gives good gifts to His children, I never had hunger pains!

On the physical side, I had a new revelation of how food is for nutritional purposes and how we are meant to savor and enjoy it. Also, reminded me to really appreciate the relationships that I have while sitting down to eat three times during the day!

On the spiritual side of things, I finally hunger for the word. I cannot get enough of it! I know the verse that says if you seek me you will find me, but I always pictured myself having to strive in order to find Him. Truth is, with just one glance, with one whisper of His name, He is running after me.

 I re-read prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32, and I chose to look at just the goodness of the Father. Here’s what I found: He immediately did what they asked, with an open hand as they asked for their inheritance, even before it was suppose to be given. He even gave above and beyond what they asked. (God does the same for us!)

Next, He felt compassion for His son. In that day, men of his stature surely didn’t run! When he saw his son, he wasn’t ashamed. He ran to him and embraced with a kiss! (God is not ashamed of us, He has compassion on us, He knows our frames!) After the son had a spill of how undeserving He was of his fathers love, the Father didn’t even address that, He chose not to dwell on it. (Forgiveness is immediate and He does not condemn.) When He was wanting to adorn His son, He had a sense of urgency as He spoke with His servant. (God has urgency for our intimacy.) He dressed him with a robe, that signifies righteousness, cleanliness, and a new identity. He also gave him a ring, that shows his covenant and promises. Lastly, a pair of shoes that shoes him that identity will follow him where ever he goes. Then the Father asks for the best meat to be brought in! The best cow now cost even thousands of dollars! He threw a party without even one thought of the cost. (God isn’t limited on how much to give us. He wants us to have the best!) When I say this, I am not thinking materialism, although it’s not a sin to have nice things. God knows our hearts and how we steward things that we are given!

During this celebration the Father rejoices over the son. (God exalts us higher than we even think of ourselves.) He doesn’t stop there. Not only does the Father go to meet the lost son, but He actively leaves the party to go and beg the other son to come and join. (God is always pursuing us, even if we are coming to him, or if we are choosing to sit out.) Although this son was angry and felt entitled, the Father simply reminds him that all that the Father has is already the sons. (God doesn’t withhold inheritance, sometimes we just don’t realize what we have.)

Both sons thought they had to strive for it, the truth is, it was already freely given!

So the truth that I learned over all is that Jesus just wants us to know how much the Father enjoys us. I want to and I encourage you to run to Him fearlessly and not from Him due to rebellion and weakness!

At the conclusion of the fast, I have gotten a deeper revelation of how much the Father loves me, how He sustains me, and have a true hunger to know him on a more intimate level.

This week has been absolutely crazy following the Fast. We have had Circuit Riders in from Hawaii teaching us all about evangelism and demolishing doubt, passibity, and unbelief!! More to follow on that later! 

Seraphim's Cry

I am back at it! I was accepted back into a secondary school of worship titled 'Seraphim's Cry' at YWAM Bethlehem in New Zealand. After an amazing month home of visiting family, friends, and Church; God made it incredibly clear for me to continue on with what He has started.

Again, I saw His provision provided for as I received nearly $3,000 for my pla

ne ride back within only two weeks!

I am also excited to announce that all $4,000 of my lecture fees have been covered completely by a generous act of obedience to the Lord!

For reference, I will be going on another two-month mission to Penang, Malaysia! We are joining the YWAM base there. The base already has local ministries that we will serve. One of those include, serving the homeless at a soup kitchen. Others include ministering to rescued human traffickers, and kids/youth ministries. We also will partner with the house of prayer in Penang, called PenHOP. Since we are a worship school, we will most likely lead some of the worship sets there. My team is excited to join what God is already doing in Malaysia. It is a Muslim nation and will be quite different from anything I have been around, but I am excited to see God’s strength through me like never before. The bonus is, light shines the brightest in the darkest places, so my team and I are very expectant so see life changes through influence!

* Those who are led to partner with me and financially invest into my next mission, please know I welcome it! I have a total cost of  $4,000 to be able to follow this call!

Back to what I am doing in this moment: What is a seraphim anyways?

The seraphim is a creature that God created with eyes all over it’s body to behold the beauty of God in the throne room of heaven. The proper response that they have in seeing this beauty; is constantly proclaiming, “Holy, Holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come!”

We have adopted this as our focus. We want to be enthralled by the beauty of God from a place of intimacy, then to give a proper response to Him in worship! We are longing for a new song to arise in our generation and for a freedom to be released in acceptable worship to God. 

We know we all fall short of His glory in giving Him the due honor that He deserves. That doesn’t motivate me to just give it up though! That makes me want to give it all I have with all He has given me for Him to receive glory! After all, He’s the reason why I am here!

I have now been back for almost an entire two months. To be real, the first week I struggled with being back here in Tauranga, New Zealand. Although it was clear as day that God wanted me to be here, Satan was coming after me!

I had a struggle through each airport getting here.

I missed my first flight leaving out of Atlanta. Praise the Lord that I had enough extra money to purchase another plane ticket! I arrived in LA and found out that both my carry-on bag and personal bag were overweight. I laid my bags wide open, in front of everyone that was in line attempting to check-in, to transfer some items. After my rolling bag was filled to the max, the guy informed me that I would have to pay $100 to check my bag in. After a second of prayer (knowing I couldn’t afford this) and a look of understanding, the guy informed me I could actually check it in at the gate and he wouldn’t charge me! Praise the Lord!

Round two happened again at check-in, where I would need to re-check that same bag in for my next plane in New Zealand. This time the gentleman informed me that it would cost $188. After asking him if I could get around this in any way He allowed me to transfer some weight around. So again, I laid all three of my bags wide open in front of the check out line. By this time I was working up a sweat, pulling out my heavy items like cowgirl boots and winter coats and layering up in attempt to save money I didn’t have! Finally, I achieved the accepted weight and was able to board! Praise the Lord!  (Personally, the weight is all going on the plane, in the same exact place, what difference does it make which bag it is in? But it pays to follow the rules!)

Back to business, I have been on information overload as secondary school is surely more intense that DTS! The teachings have far exceeded what I thought I would be learning about. So far, our topics have been about intimacy and knowing God, Identity as sons and as brides of Christ, Freedom, and our true reality. We have studied biblical and historical basis and what it means to fear the Lord with awe and reverence. Meaning, not accepting the things that He hates, and to be fascinated with the things He loves!

We’ve been taught how to dissect the bible well. Our teachers have showed us the importance of looking up Greek words and understanding the root of what was being said along with historical background and context.

I’ll tell you this, I’ve never been a history girl…at all! Honestly, I’ve never even really had a hunger to study the word.

I had quite an adventure last week in the area of word study, as our base we went deeper into where God was leading us! Stay tuned to get an update tomorrow of how God moved through me as we sacrificed to know Him more!

Thank you all for following me and keeping me supported by your prayers! I’ve definitely felt the strength of the Lord as I pray He has been glorified in our busy schedule!

Praise report: I prayed that God would lead people to financially support my outreach cost, and as I type I have gotten an email with $200 already! Thank you for those who are sowing into this partnership as well!

 Much love and Many blessings,

Kyndal